I have found that digging myself out of a funk alone is one of the hardest things to do. I have always had someone to talk to, but when all I have left is a significant other who isn't always around, and a cat, I am starting to feel like I am just sinking. Ever since I moved out of the family house, I feel like a complete stranger to them. I just feel like I am worthless in their eyes. I have nothing worthwhile to really live for. It hurts so much more than I can define. I just feel like I serve no purpose in the world. I just want to ball up and disappear.
I would love to remain positive. I just can't find anything positive about the life I'm leading. I have finally made my own choices and I just don't much feel like they will serve me any good. I have a dead-end job. I am again depending on someone else to get me by in life. I have nothing to say for myself. I just don't know where to go. I don't know who to depend on. I don't know who to talk to. I wish life was easier.
I am tired of the tears and having to explain why I'm upset. I am tired of being nothing but broken. I wish I could figure it all out. I just have no place to go anymore. I sort of feel like if I were to disappear today, no one would go looking for me. Hell, no one would even notice.
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